Angry Tattoos

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Photos by me and via Pinterest.

I'm having an angry day, friends.

Pain courses through the mind, the body. Send me love and light.

When the heart suffers negative energy, it feeds. And I want my light shining bright colors, not black.


I want the next tattoo. I'm going tonight with some friends, to feel something other than this anger. Maybe then I'll paint, meditate, eat food with people I love, and begin to let go.



How do you let go?

 How do you mourn the loss of one life as it shifts into another?

 I'm gritting my teeth through all this change. Some days I'm smiling, but today I'm gritting my teeth.

Moving on is hard. Moving is hard too -- carrying all those boxes, the weight of them holding me back and I become like a bird with one wing. 

Help me carry them. Namaste.

On Fearlessness

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Are you at a moment where you need to change your life for the better, but haven't done it yet?

Maybe you're wondering how to push through the fear that's holding you back.

Can I handle this? What will happen next?

The fear-based questions run through your lizard brain. 

Quit holding back.



Take the step. Get on the plane, or walk out the door, or end the relationship.

Make the leap. Start something new & better.

You can do it. I believe you can...

And once you start believing too, you'll manifest the change you need.

XO

Recent Adventures

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I decorate. I take photos. I dance and smile because I can.



I burn candles and paint and meditate. I doodle the hell out of anything... notebooks, backs of paper scraps, discarded wood, my own skin :)

I sing my own song.


 

I am learning to let go...of fears and of old hurts. I lam learning how to really love. (It starts here, at your own heart. It starts with an opennness to God's presence and his plans for transforming you.)

Sending You Love & Light

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Top photo by Max Herman of TimeOut Chicago. Bottom photo by me.

May today bring you peace, light and love!

Wherever you are - whatever walk of life you happen to come from - how ever you happen to be doing... I hope happiness finds you today. :)

Take a moment to breathe. Feel your lungs fill to the top with air. Slow exhale, release. Let your shoulders relax for a second. Let go of the pain you're holding onto.

You're OK. Hey, you're wonderful. Just breathe.
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Yoga arises from the inspiration to become whole, to participate in the higher energy, awareness and purpose of life. This is the deepest desire of the heart: your feeling or highest wish is the true power behind your alignment, expression or experience of the pose.
- doug keller


I Love You, North Coast!

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North Coast Music Fest has been amazing so far. Yesterday some of my favorites were Gramatik, Beats Antique, Atmosphere and Girl Talk... today is Digitalism, Big Boi and Pretty Lights!



Besides the music, though, the atmosphere at North Coast is fantastic... super laid back, fun and hilarious people everywhere, and tons of artful moments. 

Graffiti guys painting. Little green neon lights glowing. Hoopers dancing.

Body paint. New friends to talk to.



My heart goes out to all of you North Coast-ers... you guys rock.

See you this afternoon!

Breathe, Stretch, Shake, Let it Go

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Photos by the talented Sarah Rhoads.

Rest is good.

 When is the last time you took a day just for you?

 Time to wander... do nothing... sit under the trees or enjoy a cup of coffee with no plans...

Maybe you need time to write the poem you've been putting off. Or roll your mat out again, for the first time in a long time.

 Your body moving slowly, enjoying every posture. Your mind at rest.

Where can you go to find peace?

 Whose heart are you listening to?

Lotus Sutra (A Poem)

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Lotus Sutra
There is the sound of this train
traveling by
my thigh burns
with the beauty of a new
tattoo -- he inked into me
a symbol - grace,
effortless grace,
this night echoes on. I feel
a stirring in the depths

 sitting there,
more like laying there - reiterating my life
to myself in numbers, waves,
heat pain in the most pure, simple form...
I felt as though we knew each other 
long before this night. Speaking while creating
art. The rhythm of it. The others,
unspoken truths, spoken 
laughter... sarcasm and cigarette smoke
hanging in the air like
a lotus petal
stuck on water.




Sometimes we have nowhere

else to go except
back to 
who we are to begin with.

 Begin again.

 Now.

 He speaks there, writing into me.

 Now is the right time.

 Where have I gone 
to deserve this?

 Going onward,
knowing pain,
growth.

 You touch me, 
knowing me,
won't you be
beginning again?

 Go on,
follow me.

Play

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Photos via Rummey Bears and Pinterest. 

After three years of solid yoga practice, I've come to realize a lot of my progress derives from a willingness to play on the mat.

The only way you'll get to a point where you're willing to risk falling on your face in front of a crowded studio... is when you let go of the fear of making a fool of yourself.

Try out the pose.

Experiment.

We're all just playing when we come to class.

When you fall, laugh. Learn how to fall safely so you don't get hurt.

But more importantly: be willing to fall. :)

Rock Solid

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Yoga requires focus.

Strength. Determination.

Not just the flexibility to put your foot behind your head.


I love the challenge of meditation. I'll get restless, twitchy, distracted. But in the perseverance, I learn. I begin to let go. 

In meditation, we train the brain to think differently.

Re-routing those neurons to fire in positive ways, rather than negative ones.

Are you missing your practice right now? You let it go and can't seem to get back to the mat?



Return. You deserve your practice. 

It's been waiting for you :)

Hugs: We Need 'Em

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Photo via Oh Darling Photo.

You feel a good hug with your heartbeat.

Full body, full squeeze. That deep, stomach-doing-flips feeling. :)

Photo via Rummey Bears.

A hug is such a simple, playful way to say you care. And that you don't want to let go any time soon.

Photo via Tyler Branch.

Or maybe you do -- because it's time -- and the moment has passed. But you know you'll be squeezing someone tight again soon. Or have someone holding you.

Even after you've walked away, the resonance of that touch stays.

Overcoming Obstacles

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Hey wonderful readers...I'm going through a hard time right now. For as much positive energy and pure light as I try to bring to this blog space at Alive in the Fire... sometimes, I am sad.

Angry.

Hurt. 

Confused.
Photo by Oh Darling Photo. 

We all go through crazy stuff in life, and we come out the other side stronger. But at the time, obstacles can feel overwhelming. Goals, unattainable.

 Stress & worry don't serve us, but we turn to them. (Perhaps at the time it's the only way we know how to cope.)

 I have had my share of anxiety and suffering, that's for sure. :)

Would you do me a favor?

Send some positive love & light my way in the next few weeks.

Better yet, go ahead and share it with your close friends, too. Give more hugs. Smile because you can, not because you have to.

If you've stuck around at Alive in the Fire, hopefully you've noticed that one of my goals here is to make the world a brighter place because we all go through challenges... and we need each other to survive those challenges.

Whether you're a yogi in Chicago or New York City, a dancer in Sacramento, a massage therapist working in Kansas, a friend of a friend from London or Paris or Saudi Arabia...an engineer in South America... a reiki practitioner, a young person, an old person...

I'm so grateful for all of you. :)

Photo via the ballerina project.


I love you all and I appreciate so much that you take time out of your day to read my ramblings and check out the photos.

If you guys could send me your light, I'll feel it. Energy resonates. And I could use some of your positive energy these days. :)

So thanks in advance, and keep changing the world for the better! You inspire me as much as I inspire you.

om namah shivaya
namaste!

Photo by Cara Brostrom.
PS if you're so inclined, you can always drop me a little digital hug via aliveinthefire at gmail dot com, too :) I adore hearing from you guys!

Hoop de Hoop (Practice Your Art!)

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Photos by me.

Happy Monday, yogis!

I hope you had a weekend filled with love, hope, and happy energy. I've been enjoying some relaxed time with my brother and his friend who are visiting from California.

There's nothing better than being a tourist in your own city. I'm relearning Chicago: hula hooping by Lake Michigan, experiencing my first baseball game (what up SOX?!), taking the El everywhere, Festa Italiana (Peroni, pizza, old guys singing like Frank Sinatra, and sunny walks all over the place), and dancing the night away at the Underground. 

And, of course, practicing some yoga and writing some poetry.




What art are you practicing these days?

Open Your Eyes

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Photo by Cara Brostrom.
Photo illustration via PrAna.

Your life is happening right now. You're in it. 

Often I hear people say things like: "I want to make time for more yoga" or "I'm not flexible enough to try yoga" or "Someday, I'll be stronger... once I do this, this, and this."

What if you began to manifest what you're hoping for in your life -- right now?

 Photos by me. 

You already are a yogi.

You already are flexible. And with practice, you will grow more flexible.

You are strong.

You're living your dreams right now -- go ahead and feel into that! :)

Photo by a friend . 

Instead of saying, "One day I'll teach yoga," I've begun to say, "I already teach yoga." And I do. 

I teach simple poses in the park. Or I smile at strangers on the train simply because I hope to bring them a moment of peace, of joy. I hula hoop and dance around and say hi to people. 

I love others even when I might not like some of the things they do.

I ask that light and love pour through me.

And I watch people around me pick up on that bright, bold energy... and it is beautiful :)

Go ahead and live today with your eyes open. You're already there!

namaste

Practice Together, Practice in Love

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Photos by my beautiful yogini friend Leah.

Practicing alone has its benefits... and solitude is worth something. Hearing your own calm breath out your mouth, no distractions...

Finding a sense of calm on the mat: sometimes this is challenging; sometimes this is the easiest part of the day. 

Quiet, mind, quiet. Be still.



Coming together with other yogis changes the process. It's comforting to know you're surrounded by a group of other humans -- all imperfect, all tired, all seeking -- and that you can be alone together, each of you on your mat.

Hands in prayer: solo. Some energy created.

Hands in prayer: a circle of yoginis by the lake... the energy multiplies.

The world hears the chant of om     om    om   when there are many voices to ring out.

More sound, more power, more love.


I am so grateful for you, yogis of the world. Thank you for coming together in peace to practice.

Together in love  ~~  namaste!